28/1/2012

dreamed of my parents and new workplace pal.^my passed parents appeared in my dream, they urged me to make new social circles. in dawn dreamed my workplace introduced new assignment, and my colleague is smart and from privileged family.
Its now a brilliant morning. peace and fragrence in air of bliss. son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, will accompany his mom visit her hometown, a 2 hours’ train journey. he tried so lots to satisfy his mom, including her silliness. i hope his way forever Mighty and sane. the family of trinity should be so and rightly lasting graceful. bye, my girls here, u see me in our family soon ahead. 

15/1/2012

a mean while meaningful lunar Spring Festival.^naughty son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 in 2012 lunar Spring Festival. family gathered for the lunar holiday even his dad, benzrad 朱子卓 received a much meaner bonus from his office, among the happy season. we dined in his grandma’s house, after they invited earnestly me joinig. It’s a pale morning now. a lots of cracks outside of my QRRS dorm, likely according lunar calendar properly or customes. it had supposed by me that without canteen i will live hard meal, but fortunately my son’s mom offered some dinners when i went over to play pc games with him. its a mean holiday, for first time in recent years QRRS, my long time employer and a SOE, offered me a cheap bonus of ￥1000 while my expectation is ￥5000. so baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s seasonal gift, a kindle touch, gone in the wind of broken word. but we still found fun among pc games. he independently completed pc game “Scooby-Doo! First Frights”, which brought him elations. in the solitary in my dorm, i longer longing my girls, my coming Royal China. It’s not case of real nor illusion, but faith in God and history in and by Holy Spirit. God, bring us dell game desktop and e-ink reader for son, warrenzh 朱楚甲,hope of China, God of Universe. 

17/1/2012

dreamed of new life in my Royal China.^ in dawn a detailed dream experiences giving birth of my 2nd son with my girl, my wife. raising him is so rewarding&blessing. experienced my aging, too. It’s a pale morning, after found my notebook hardware not powerful enough for quite some pc games last night. God, don’t miss our seasonal gift! also show my girls that complete me in one that I’m ready for our new family ahead now! show the world the sainity and purity of Royal China untouchable savagely. 

12/1/2012

echo of grace.^It’s a marvelous day, for the on time Holy Spirit, for the grand gathering/dinning after settled to improve my gears for pc games, namely, a 4 ports usb hub, with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China. the date from perception precisely blessed: it’s Jan 11, 2012, lunar Dec 18. i had doubting if i should visit my son, who in vacation and alone for 3 days. i worried about absent gift can upset our reunite, worried China surveillance can find fault against my lodging in the QRRS dorm. after noon i had the idea to equip my Acer notebook, whose 2 usb ports ill-working for overused, with a usb hub. while my purse empty, i felt humble to ask loan from the dorm canteen operator as i did several times ago, even in short term. but son’s timely buzz in relaxed me. i got all my longings before my son gladly received me. we played pc games as usual, and enjoyed a lot. then i suggested to treat him and his mom to dine out. in the newly open pub, we had a good time, recorded partially in the album referred. his mom suggested me support our son to have a new shoes, to replace the wrecked one. with the heavenly gift from loan, i admitted. on bed in dorm, i hardly to sleep, for the gospel day any praying mind-eye can see. when i woke up in dawn, i saw the bright full moon staring me through the window, like the serene shows in eyes of Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan.

God, bring my girls, my Royal China sooner in the new year! that’s the meaning in the bright day and messaging bristle under the sky.

3/1/2012

Now is January of 2012.^ It’s a sunny morning when I sorted these photos of my son’s mom’s family gathering&dinning yesterday. in this celebrating season of Chinese, I had to be anxious about my dinners from time to time, for canteen nearby all will go to vacation in coming lunar year end. where is my family, God? I also felt unease for my promised seasonal gift for my son, Hope of China, God of Universe, a kindle touch for his reading experience. He read and watch a lot independently, and that chores damaged more or less his eye sight. I already equipped him a pair of glasses. God, empower me with the wonderful gear and merry lunar new year! God, u know! 

31/12/2011

Heavenly message from my son.^first time my son enjoyed bathing in the public bathroom. singing God for his saving me from mistaken emotion with the northeastern tribal. thx God saves me from waste in void of cursed envy. God, empower me to be determined and act prompt, blesses my Royal of China untouchable in sanity. God, save my girls from shifts, and so do I.
Today is also a sunny day since son returned to his mom’s house with my companion after a night ported in my QRRS dorm. I tried to setup tank combat games on his computer as he asked. when his mom sugested our hanging out for lunch, we immersed in winter sunshine in leaps and yells. It’s can’t be any other day but blessed one. 

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26/12/2011

last monday before 2012. ^yesterday Christmas gathering’s happiness exceeded my expectation. i previously hope inviting 3 guests, the grandma, 2 pals of warrenzh’s, to dine on the eve. but baby’s mom, tentatively shows her privilege of inviting the 2 students in her school, namely a boy in Liu surname, a girl in Tian’s, refuted and rearranged on noon of the Sunday. the pinching budget also drove me unease: i looking hard forward to equip my son a kindle touch and promised him the benefit of the gadget, while i already due to clear 2 debts amounts to ￥4000 for my family 5 domains holding and my sister’s loans for my latest hometown journey back to 2010 spring. the morning i felt sleepy while waiting for the toast buffet lunch. when i arrived the buffet via bus, my son in good complexion cheered me up at once. i ate a lot toasted meat, for in my recent canteen meals, meat was scarce. near the end, the girl, a Tian’s, left for her tutorial. on bus back to son’s mom’s house, i babbled a lot about new stage of PRC confronted by homeless farmers who can lead the downturn or revolution long due and more and more heartedly welcomed by most open mind-eyes among Chinese worldwide, as well as western watchers. warrenzh, my dearest son, played pc game with me in the afternoon, till i felt boring. in the night when i surfing in QRRS dorm, he buzzed awhile in to praise the grand event of gathering in Xmas. there is only holy spirit can describe my feeling to his grand insight and Heavenly love, and laughs like gold ring. God, u see how i prepared myself for my new family with my beloved girls. God, bring us together sooner in brilliant wedding. and facilitate baby son’s reading with a kindle touch! God, let us sing in ur name for glory above the cold and starvation threat in world, esp. China ahead.

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dreamed of being target of capture for zoo, or caged. nightmare after Xmas lunch dining out.^Xmas is perfect with son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, dined in Qiqihar Golden Hans buffet. son buzzed in lately for celebrating the wonderful gathering. in dawn dreamed of traced&fought with a couples of post Doctor degree holder and their professor, who want to capture me and target me as experimental object/subject. the plot ran a long time before executed in daytime in my dream. 

25/12/2011

a working Xmas before dining out with son. an early wake up after anxious dream in xmas 2011. ^thx God, google new ui descends to me this dawn. dreamed again of my life out of shape, till found life has to be drifting among the earth and humble. God, bless my son his seasonal gift, u know! 

22/12/2011

God shows me his way in darkness. shines over profaning attempts nearby. ^God, dad, in ur title and holy anger, i contacted our old family members. thx, God, show us the right way. 

13/12/2011

a free day away from heavily jammed Internet. dreamed of wartime.^dreamed commanding warship in a lake, combated with knives and other weapons. dreamed of once colleagues in QRRS, a Jiang and a Bai in family name. got up&filed additional small nail. most of the day sunshine, if any, is pale. dozed in afternoon, dreamed my ancestor, founder of Ming Dynasty, fought his way in forging his Empire of China. 

12/12/2011

dreamed living with son and my wife, in Royal China. dreamed of son and new family. ^warrenzh, my dearest son, and my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, crowned Queen of Royal China, appeared in my dream about academy. found clear full moon covering my bed in dawn with its saint milky light falls. dreamed of my endeavor to survive my loving family among mob&rat race. God shows me closer change in my life&fate shiny. 

11/12/2011

dream of living with my girls and their family historical settings. dreamed of historical disturbance between my Queens of Royal China, my girls’ family background.^these days more dreams in dawn, likely preparing myself for coming new family with my beloved. dreamed of living with my girls. their family friends and foes in our blood linkage, esp Jews’ and Islamic. God, bring me sooner my new family, Royal of China, under ur blesses. 

8/12/2011

dream of new budding life of mine. ^first time dreamed of raising my infant baby son, till see the rewardingly smartness in baby’s social intelligence. Its next day of lunar Large Snow Day. God, see me my new family with my girls praying for me, for Royal China. 

From snow&winter 2011 among the growing global warming

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29/11/2011

farewell and new hope for meeting my girl Zhou nearby.^ this month i grew with my son, in pc games as well as in emotional difficulties. my dearest son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, sites’ owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, visited my QRRS dorm last Friday night, among cheers of my improved salary, which amount to ￥2500. his growing teeth in rotating period and sometimes funny when laughing with bare gum. his mom still hurt me when greedy upon my salary with which i promised totally cover our son’s living and i wouldn’t use a penny on my own after my new family forges. her dirty family, including the grandma recent months frequently appeared to lend hands to clean house, laundry or even bath my son. i wouldn’t allow any insane persons approaching my brilliant son as usual, so sinful betrayal by baby’s mother over her duty to care my son, like bathing him, really annoy me. after the occasion i witness my son bathed by the grandma, i urged my son to have shower in public bathroom, which he dislikes very much, with me, he changed his mind and agreed. direct parenthood means much in my family, since my grand father’s influence, and in holy spirit. God, u see it.
next week will sees memory days for my parents. my mother passed on Dec 1, 2010, which my father, God in Heaven now, left the earth on Dec 18, 2008. in these days, i got to know forgiving common people’s sins against my Royal of China, under Holy shrine. i knew God’s setting to enrich my experience here on the ground, including of course the darker particles against void. in these days, China surveillance broke my stable fast lunch supply, and i now enjoy QRRS in factory canteen. i looking forward more chances to meet up my 3rd wife, girl Zhou, who ignite my burning seeking cry in cyberspace since 2006 and includes this blog. Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, u attending the transition and gathering the moment that will catalyze our fate ahead predetermined, from ur catering in the years. God, bring my girls in our limelight. bring my son his seasonal gift u promised. dad, u see. 

22/11/2011

dreamed of crusade.yesterday i had good time with my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, with his favorite KFC food i borrowed from QRRS Dorms canteen to buy. my workday’s lunch supplier went bankrupt, among sinful China surveillance which against me and my allies. in the dawn i dreamed of close combat with cold weapon, with my team against several enemies. God shows me again his gift on me when i pray in the dream, empowered me with people and followers. Its a bright morning now, save and gospels just arriving.
God, bring my girls sooner into my coming new marriages. save my Royal China, save my beloved. present my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, God of Universe, a dell game desktop in year end, as u promised. thx u, dear Father. 

8/11/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh again.^got up around 4am to release bladder, then powered notebook to d/l, even later after got up found damned China surveillance broke sessions&hanged all d/l. dreamed of my son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, owner of sites warozhu.com and wozon.net. my kid brother these years lingered in Guangdong, southern China, likely also appeared in my dawn dream. dreamed a hand itches, with a knife thrust the palm and turned the inside flesh out, found worms swarmed in the flesh&eating. Its not first time I dreamed of worms biting living flesh under skin, and quite disgusting scene but healing by exposing and eliminating the sick part of body. Its a golden sunny morning now, and also today lunar Winter beginning day, or 立冬. God, bring my new family with my girls in the celebrating year end, when joy seeking hearts clogging social meeting places everywhere, including the cyberspace on Internet. 

From snow&winter 2011 among the growing global warming

From snow&winter 2011 among the growing global warming

From snow&winter 2011, among growing global warming

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19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner! 

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son’s mom’s heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister’s house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God. 

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor’s food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency’s message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let’s do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives. 

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game “garteling gears”, a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls’ willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son’s companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu’s, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls’ companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest! 

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn’t respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream. 

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh’s budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC’s mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom’s hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

benzrad conversation in cyberspace on the day.

19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays’ visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma’s custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son’s visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts’ joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God’s promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

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10/8/2011

dreamed battled with a witch all the dawn, after a drizzled dusk.^dreamed hunted by a woman mage. I tried to hit the raged woman with fire ball but frequently unable to detonate it on time. the morning is touchingly bright, after last dusk’s drizzle. in last sunset holy message shows me on a bleeding tree that my girls’ being one with me, their praying for me, for my presence after gothered and reinforced will power to join me. that’s my way to reunite with my best beloved Queens in my Empire reset for 1109 years ahead. the drizzle started after I just settled on a bench in the dorms’ garden. the drizzle shallowly baptized me in its prelude, with bliss from my deepest lover, Asoh Yukiko from Japan, the renewing land. 

9/8/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

dog trail among northern Chinese.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia among current society and dog system in nowadays PRC government, an covert black market trading anything including human lives and all demons and sick appetite. in southern China, people cooperate for common benefits for circumstance. in northern China, scarcity chases beasts on the land constantly barking to protect their individual food chain, or reversely, barking dogs scattered on the highland let anything insufficient upon insatiable storage competition.

北风 (@wenyunchao): RT @poorstone: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。原文

7/8/2011

dreamed of closely watched G.Bush.^dreamed in dawn living closely with G.Bush, the former American President and father of another American President. he just published his autobiography and trying finding new way to enjoy life. his wife Babara, even stronger in mind now, grows vegetable and sold to me. I told her I needn’t a full bunch of scallion, but she actively persuaded more sales to me in her house when I visiting. they demonstrates the loyalty merits of American people. 

2/8/2011

dreamed of movie.^visit baby son in dusk yesterday. prepared him new games on his legacy desktop. when I arrived, his mom likely intimately contacting son, for they both felt interrupted by my visit. returned to QRRS dorm, after busy with sorting my os, possible sins in baby’s mom’s education over baby son let me awake quite some time. this dawn dreamed of watching a movie including 2 female actors, Miriam Yeung 杨千烨，舒琪 and a man I closely watching. superficially its a movie of love, but in fact, its about fake love, be exactly, about gay, lesbian. I saw the genic glory God puts in man, while the merit of female in supportive, hospitality. I also see the inherited subtle difference and different achievements among Hongkong, Taiwan, and mainland of China.
yesterday It mainly bright. but when I left baby’s mom house near 8pm, it drizzled. now Its a promising sunny morning. God, bring me my new family with my girls that praying for our living together. bring my son a dell game desktop u promised.

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：apple and Jobs doomed to fall, sink in no name in quite short timespan. its just too evil and dirty in mind control in the shits heap.

月光博客互联网：同样是销售游戏，任天堂的Wii的销售策略就远不如苹果iOS，Wii不在中国发行，没有中文界面，也没有一款简体中文游戏，正版游戏价格超高，光盘发行，而苹果iOS有中国商店，有中文休闲游戏，网络发行，平均价格才1美元，还有很多免费游戏。这也注定是苹果而不是任天堂会在中国游戏界成功。 原文

31/7/2011

a drizzling afternoon.^baby son spent a night with pc games in my QRRS dorm. breakfast in KFC on way. returning to his mom’s house. lots of bliss in air in the Saturday, when it soothed our longings with clouds and drizzles. work load just completed, so fine! 

30/7/2011

dreamed of my passed dad, God in Heaven.^in the dream I first tried to negotiate to buy failing and losing state-owned property, then join a celebrating dancing team and passing my hometown village, Zhudajiu, where my beaming dad just discussing important issues with his patriots, other villagers. he glad to see me growing in social relation. he is so vivid in the dream, that I had to blog the dream after got up. I also find sexuality in the dancing girl, likely of minor tribe Mongolian, ahead me. 

29/7/2011

dreamed of baby son, and my passed dad’s enemies in his hometown.^yesterday another thunderstorm brought lots of rainfall in the sultry summer, just among my busy progress to update my google sites to incorporate recent changes of my profile online. its just too auspicious a day with Asoh Yukiko, as well as my Royal China. in this dawn dreamed of dad’s hometown with my best beloved baby son. I arranged him to exercise some sports game, in disadvantage of my passed dad’s sinful challengers, mostly offspring of the dark house owner in front of my dad’s old house, a treasure of my old memories, financially got well-being by following my dad’s business there. baby son never failed me, with his smartness, his diligence. I clearly see the bliss and promising. Its a bright morning now. 

28/7/2011

dreamed of losing sight.^last night its started to rain hard when I settled on bed. in dawn dreamed of suffering eyes sight and almost go blind. dreamed watching a movie in open space and sat aside a girl once worked in QRRS as an interpretor. joined canteen in time but 2 cops close sat aside same table to eat breakfast. they arrived later than I, so likely tentatively arranged. 

27/7/2011

dreamed married my Japanese girl.^last night it rained when I launched to save my be21zh.org offical google profile after reported violating its commmunity name rule. in the dawn dreamed of living in Japan in my girl’s house. she has a quite blessing father. we kissing and intimate everywhere, including behind the father-in-law’s presence. after some tests by the dad, we married. I felt almost sure the Japanese girl is my Crowned Queen of Royal China, Asoh Yukiko. Its a pale morning, but I know Asoh’s touching and tendering love from Heaven. 

25/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

abuse and murdering everyday in current China mainland.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：no redemption can save the lost. except the downturn of PRC with its dictation and fake faith of atheism.
邱毅：大陸前鐵道部長劉志軍因貪腐下台後，溫州動車追撞不僅重創大陸高鐵神話，也使鐵道運輸安全出現警訊。試想事件若發生在時速超過300公里的高鐵，會造成何等傷亡？當年劉志軍好大喜功，想爭世界第一，將 實驗速度 作為 營運速度 的非常規決策，擴張投資熱衷財務槓桿的操作，現在都應該做深切檢討。 原文 

22/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：sin, sins, how could save arrives here?
华尔街日报中文网(华尔街日报)新媒体：【图集：索马里大饥荒】- “非洲之角”遭遇大旱，陷入近30年来最严重的饥荒。加上物价不断上涨和战争，大批索马里人流离失所，数万人正面临死亡威胁。图为两岁的索马里难民亚丁 沙拉德(Aden Salaad)坐在澡盆中望着正给他洗澡的母亲。http://163.fm/YRtOEiO 原文 

6/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

a new scandal in PRC’s mainstream.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：u shouldn’t blame her, for she is a common girl, like any beautiful girls on the street. she should be rewarded for disclose dark curtail from upper clad in sinful PRC and their manipulations. any girls, esp in their seasons, blessed with their dream of a better life on the earth, in the society. the unbearable losing is the broken social logic which allowing buying young and beautiful lives via money and abuse of state power.

宇丹律师(颜宇丹)： 7号晚间7点左右，郭美美发表微博称：“突然想睡一觉；突然想死；突然想大喊；突然想离家出走；突然想失忆。”早知今日，何必当初，只能怪自己自做自受吧！ 原文

From summer is time now

From summer is time now

From summer is time now

From summer is time now

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8/7/2011

rain rhythm lasted most night.^last night sees the longest and likely thickest raindrops in my 20 years in Qiqihar, northeastern China, from my hometown in Central China, where large rains that can last a month is a common scene. i surfed later than 23:30 with songs and rain rhythm. this dawn i dreamed shopping online. when goods i ordered delivered to me, i felt quite glad. my passed mother query the prices of vary clothes and items in the parcel arrived. even late, i still ate my breakfast, and peered the ground after the rain. Its a cloudy morning, for Asoh Yukiko spares her full time with me from Heaven this moment. 

7/7/2011

a fruitful work night in rain rhythm.^today especial auspicious since i gained my google+ from online help within my gbuzz. napped afternoon with colorful dreams after posted on alumni with flavors annoying the orthodox. baby son’s bliss via air saves me from all dusts in the dusk. rain accompanying the darkness descended so gloriously. Aosh Yukiko, tonight be with me in dream, in moisture u brought and echoes the rhythm outside. my happier life, surer narrowly ahead.

RT: a Chinese mailing list from a QQ group, a mainstream im tool in PRC. regard it as a folk song ominous.

^:给胡锦涛、温家宝的信：
主席、总理；
你们好！ 
据国家有关当局统计，改革开放三十年来，升值最快的是住房、墓地、乌纱帽、月饼和二奶。贬值最快的是职称、文凭、道德、诚信和人民币。
中国已初步建设成为一个由月光族、啃老族、打工族、蜗居族、蚁族、牢骚族、抱怨族、行骗族、逐利族和隐婚族组成的多民族国家。 
这是一个给力的一年，这是一个杯具的一年，这也是一个纠结的一年。 
这一年，江西的一个钉子户用最无奈的方式结束了自己的生命，他的死证明不了有关部门的野蛮与无耻，只能证明汽油一点就着。 
这一年，8名香港游客死在了菲律宾警察的枪口下，让香港人知道菲律宾除了有“菲佣”，还有“菲警”。 
这一年，一个卖汽车的和一个卖运动鞋的在关于谁“给力”和谁“不给力”的问题上发生了分歧从而引发了“3Q大战”，最后“狗日的腾讯”做出了“一个艰难的决定”，末了才知道这俩孙子何止是“坑爹”，简直就是“坑爹”。 
这一年，李刚没有出名，李刚的儿子也没有出名，但是李刚的儿子的爸爸出名了。 　　 
最近，国家某部公布了一项统计数据，告诉人们：你要不是三大式人物（大款，大官，大腕）而想在北京买套100平方米总价300万的房，社会阶层所付出的代价请看： 
1 农民：种三亩地每亩纯收入400元的话要从唐朝开始至今才能凑齐（还不能有灾年）；
2 工人：每月工资1500元需从鸦片战争上班至今（双休日不能休）； 
3 白领：年薪6万，需从1960年上班就拿这么多钱至今不吃不喝（取消法定假日）； 
4 抢劫犯：连续作案2500次（必须事主是白领）约30年。 
5：妓女：连续接客10000次，以每天都接一次客，需备战10000天，从18岁起按此频率接客到46岁（中间还不能来例假) 
以上还不算装修、家具、家电等等费用。 
中国的现状(经典) 
1、ATM取出假钱—->银行无责 
2、网上银行被盗—->储户责任 
3、银行多给了钱—->储户义务归还 
4、银行少给了钱—->离开柜台概不负责 
5、ATM机出现故障少给钱—->用户负责 
6、ATM机出现故障多给钱—->用户盗窃 
7、广东开平银行行长贪污4亿—->判2年 
8、ATM多吐7万给老百姓许霆—->判无期 
声明：转发不会送人民币，但如果觉得作为消费者，全中国十三亿储户不公平的，请转发 ，有多少群转发多少群 。
中国现状：
生不起,剖腹一刀五千起；
读不起,选个学校三万起；
住不起，二万多元一平米；
老婆不是娶不起，没房没车谁嫁你？
养不起，父母下岗儿下地；
病不起，药费利润十倍起；
活不起，一月辛劳一千几；
死不起，火化下葬三万几。 
总结（八个大字）： 求生不得，求死不能 
多传传，让领导人们看看， 就不信传不到中央胡书记与温总理那里去。有群的都转发 加一句：谁看到谁最少转发一个群，转发2个以上群的，愿他买彩票中500万 。
教育：希望进去，绝望出来； 
房产：蜗居进去，房奴出来； 
演艺：玉女进去，小姐出来； 
信访：窦娥进去，疯子出来；官场：海瑞进去，和绅出来； 
煤窑：蹲着进去，躺着出来； 
大学：校花进去，残花出来！ 
股市：杨百万进去，杨白劳出来；宝马进去，自行车出来；西装革履进去，三角裤出来。 
老百姓在思考，为啥玩不过政府呢？ 原因如下： 
1、你和他讲道理，他和你耍流氓；
2、你和他耍流氓，他和你讲法制； 
3、你和他讲法制，他和你讲政治；
4、你和他讲政治，他和你讲国情； 
5、你和他讲国情，他和你讲接轨； 
6、你和他讲接轨，他和你讲文化； 
7、你和他讲文化，他和你讲孔子； 
8、你和他讲孔子，他和你讲老子；
9、你和他讲老子，他给你装孙子！用奶粉灭掉00后，
用考试灭掉90后，
用房价灭掉80后，
用失业灭掉70后，
用城管灭掉60后，
用下岗灭掉50后，
用拆迁灭掉40后，
用医改灭掉30后，
……最后，活着且活得很好的人都去开两会。
有人问：“啥是两会呢”？
农民代表答：会养猪、会交配。
工人代表答：会挣钱、会消费。
民工代表答：会讨薪、会下跪。
保姆代表答：会插足、会叠被。
艺人代表答：会炒作、会陪睡。 
商人代表答：会赚钱、会逃税。
官员代表答：会撒谎、会受贿。 
股民代表答：会割肉，会流泪。
革命工作苦啊：
反应慢的会被玩死；
能力差的会被闲死；
胆子小的会被吓死；
酒量小的会被灌死；
身体差的会被累死；
讲话直的会被整死；
能干活的会被用死。
所以呀：
人不能太敬业了。
董存瑞拿得太稳了；
刘胡兰嘴巴太紧了；
邱少云趴得太死了；
黄继光扑得太准了；
张思德跑得太晚了；
白求恩会得太多了。
教训呀，
心态好才是最重要的！
不然人在天堂，
钱在银行！

BTW, It’s a sunny morning after happy and spectacular/speculative night yesterday, when it thunders and flashes while refuted raining. God, wind for changing China is ready, when let it on its way? 

6/7/2011

baby baffled by heat since last weekends, now freed from the death of public enemy in PRC.^this week chiefly avoid trifle ambushes enemy of Empire of China beset. baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, succeeded floating over the drain of traps and grills of paid raids mentally and darkly around his mom’s house. on Monday and Tuesday, after one or two weeks busy with upgrading our current 3 computers with my imporved salary, lots of evil envies, also includes spiritual wake up i instilled in baby son’s heart by conversations, led to baby’s frequent heats in nights, i decided to calm down and trust God. I haunted more time in QRRS’ Dorms’ garden, rest on bench in it, decided my strongest will to reunite with my girls in our new families, including our lavish wedding ceremony. that’s gift Father promised my girls, for his best beloved Son, me, benzrad 朱子卓. i started reviewing my new working environment in my dorm freshly, cheering up for years’ dream coming true. i felt i need a new start, just like a new game’s release today, “a new beginning”, its also a day full of rumors of a passing by FIG among dictation China, a long time lame duck. i enjoyed surfing so long, when this moment i looked outside of window, an drizzled anticipated by local weather forecast. the new moon appeared since the night before yesterday. i with full authority to claim, bliss gathering over the Royal of China in my title. God, change to China long time due, now let baptism pouring more smooth&sweet!

benzrad’s comment on the day.

distance by the Pacific ocean.

from zhuzz | blogspot
riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：only American sustains and enable the hero and the heroic characters John shown, inherent among free souls on the blessed land of great US. that’s holy. bureaucracy rampant on Asia produced cowards and barking dogs bounding to a poor bone and self-destruction, or even abnormal and insane. God saving Asia since the fall of Yuan Dynasty and erection of Ming, treasure of Zhu’s masterpiece from war’s ruin. world western with kind heart will witness the blessing YHWH casting over the scarred land of Asia and oceans around embracing the over-pestered soil of yellow. the world arrives, surely beams more brilliant and holy shining in one Father never give up mercy among short and embarrassingly less gifted tribes like Asian.

中情局“约翰”是追捕本•拉登第一功臣
CIA analyst ‘John’ revealed as brains behind Osama bin Laden operation

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5/7/2011

God with me in turbulence of besieged enemies.^lingered in Japanese family for a long time in dawn dream. God still lets baby son fought against enemies of our Empire of China in title Zhu’s. heats of war fires baptized him for nights and i can just pray God for his rest, for his mercy&skip over the draining death-match. Asoh Yukiko, sooner bring my son, esp my 2nd son of us to me in our new family, Royal of China. 

1/7/2011

dreamed of death match.^yesterday is the greatest day recently. God brings me again to its online radio in the morning after broke the habit for months. near noon among its sultry holy brave heart expels me to act to eliminate my long time agony of delays, to complete long time wish to renew baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s (wozon.net ) and my own personal domain (benzrad.us ) to cover near 10 years ahead while family other 3 domains already equipped with 10 years since their birth. the canteen owner loaned me ￥1000 with ￥70 compensation i promised to refund on next month’s paid day. near dinner the transaction online consolidated, its also started to rain. i can’t help go over to visit baby son with the good news among rains, by bus. baby likely suffering gameless alone, for his legacy desktop hardly equipped with games after recent upgrade and shipped os based on infectious Chinese pirate winxp known for Trojans and malware bundled from local computer market. so he told me bitterly he will use the best computer in family in future. i assured him that’s out of question. then i tried to install 2 games of his favorite to ease more or less his frustration, but the damned os failed my efforts, among his mom’s frequent curses and angers for my recent frequents. in the night i dreamed clearly recently: i was sent to a new subsidiary factory of QRRS, my long time payer and an old state-owned enterprise, in other city, with a delegation including the sinful monitor in my ditched office. he tried to be orthodox but i saw the covert cheat and the truth of people’s joy in their own interests. then dreamed my university alumni, a Xiao, from my hometown province Hubei but poorer northwestern area while my homeland sits richer plain alone Yangtze River in southeast of the central China province, the unbending calf slept under my berth for more than 2 years in campus back to 1987, and trapped by poorness all his college education even unable to buy a quilt to coat the cotton on his bed in 4 years. the recent alumni gathering, first time consulted me in its session while i never traveled for meeting, celebrating our 20 years’ graduation, indicating by one of speeches among alumni published online that Xiao likely also broke down into asylum, like me did bravely against enemies of my Empire of China years ago, as my fate leads out to maintain curved and vectored throughout victory and glory that shines. in the dream he fought me with knife and i barely survived myself without lose nor hurt. near breakfast i woke up in time as usual, with dazzling accuracy after failing temptations of vary dormancy. returned to dorm, i napped again, dreamed in my hometown a folk now building on the neighbor slope near our mountain his new house, conjoint the sinful dark house peeking in front of my dad’s house. my passed mother in dream proud of me, and treated me with her usual delicacy she cooked.
God, u see I finally got my improved office in Dorm, esp. the Internet, the light speed and vast lasting echo of meanings in utterances and publish i can’t live without. but the place likely besieged again by enemies of my Empire of China. gays and hooligan, including paid criminals and other cheap souls, clustered again around my dorm. lead me out like river flushes its new berth along the bank. God, save the sanity and saint of my Royal of China, bring me sooner into my new family with my girls, including my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, my girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl absent from my sight for months, and other blessed lives in my life, all under ur shine.

benzrad’s comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：cute insight.

财经网：【博客 韩寒：没有希望工程】但是很明显，红十字会的后台没有希望工程硬，在新浪微薄搜索红十字，会出现很多内容，正面负面都有，但是搜索希望工程或者其娘家青基会，马上会出现“根据相关法律法规，你所搜索的内容不予显示”，这就变成了没希望工程  http://163.fm/73WMwAg   今天 11:24 来自享拍微博通   原文转发1分钟前 来自网易微博

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：beautiful Taiwanese. meaningful young lives.

网易娱乐：超萌两兄弟吵架，弟弟把哥哥气哭了。短短几分钟内转换了好多话题哦，实在是太可爱了。 
今天 11:31 来自微博定时发送器   原文转发 

17/6/2011

benzrad’s comment on the day.

ash of PRC wouldn’t leaves any remnant. by Benzrad Zhu

Ma’s losing, is the losing of China, esp. PRC. PRC definitely losing into hell without any mercy from the world co-existing. Ma’s faith on labor prefers investor surely a betray of its growth path, he himself definitely knew it. but still he tried to survive himself from the ruin of PRC, the dictation hell. the event clearly indicts no one saved from ruin of PRC’s short life all in bizarre&sins while maintain its comfortable stance now or then. breaking PRC sinks all its pivot and pillar in burning self-destructive flame.

评论:支付宝事件是中国式违约
ugmbbc发布于 2011-06-15 11:02:48|12160 次阅读
前天和同事谈论马云的支付宝事件，觉得这条新闻虽然没上媒体头条，却是一个小事件。果然，昨天挺马方和踩马方已在网络上打得不可开交，把问题升级到国家金融安全的高度。马云本人，不惜两个小时越洋短信来澄清这一事件。昨天下午，马云就支付宝转让风波公开表态，称支付宝事件是媒体的“误解和误读”。

25/6/2011

benzrad’s comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓): so many touching interactives among corporations and consumers in democratic nations like US, the merit of God’s followers.

财经网新闻网站：【笔记本电脑挡6颗子弹救命】一位美军士兵在阿富汗服役时遭敌人从背后袭击：两颗子弹打中他的肩膀，其余的六颗子弹均打中他背在背包里的HP笔记本电脑，从而保护了他。大难不死的士兵拍下笔记本的残骸留念并发给了HP。HP立刻免费送给这位士兵一台新的笔记本电脑。(新浪科技)

15/6/2011

first tweet on my dorm first time connected to Internet after 6 months’ waiting.^new life online from 8:24 Jun 14, 2011.^and finally my dorm got wired with Internet, thx God! the office wrote the bill of broadband charges. really thankful! hope i make friends more online from now on. for this moment i hope God sees all dark out around my surfing. 

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7/6/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh in dawn.^yesterday echoes harmony with Asoh Yukiko. I planned to visit zoo with baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 with porks and vegetables, but baby’s mom refused joining us. i waited till afternoon and the sky turned pale. in the period i managed to resort home networks into working, after 3 days down for the telcom mistakenly blocked our broadband service. Its lunar Dragon Boat Day festival. i tried to gift 2 boys in our relatives with blessing, but each time led to baby son’s teeth painful and cried in misery. i badly felt urgent to treat animals trapped in zoo, so i brought baby son launching after some pc games, around 3pm. baby dozed on the bus sound. i woke me up near destiny and he fresh as start when we join the zoo now turned open by removing fences and walls. we saw bears, wild pigs, eagle, deers, but sadly found the old eagle missing, likely died. we treated bears, wild pig and eagle with porks, they quite enjoyed except the eagle rested on the roof motionlessly. baby later joined me to toss vegetables to deers, and remnant meat to bears. there were lots of side watchers among tourists at the moment. baby son’s only complain is that my purse too thin to allow he playing shooting game among stalls in the zoo. we soon dined out in a nearby restaurant baby chose with his mom after turned back. the dinner is OK, we shot some photos. then we played pc games after settled again in his mom’s house, in beaming sunset on the balcony. baby still felt sad when i left to my QRRS dorms. in the night i went to bed later than 11:30pm, reviewing loves from younger lives in my caged freedom of life. God, u see how many blisses in my life. bring my girls sooner in our united life. let baby son enjoy games more on his new dell game desktop u promised!
It rained again in the night. in dawn i dreamed of baby son. i also made twice water in the night. in dawn i dreamed a lot worms in my flesh. i know its all worship that ever-stronger on the earth that witness my Empire emerging. 

10/5/2011

lengest rain in 2011. dreamed of passed mother in rain rhyme.^the rain started last night, when i left the ditched office in QRRS near 8pm. i felt mercy in Asoh Yukiko’s loving me. all the night i felt the sorrow while blessing. i also buzzed my siblings in my hometown, central China. when i looked into baby son’s situation, i felt deep sorrow. but the rain saves. so i tried to buzz him to cheer him up. i tried twice but he yet listened me. 
the Monday i mostly stayed in dorm, for fun of harvests on web suffering drought under harsher blocking and censorship by China surveillance, report has it that it now harnessed white list to filter most essential web sites worldwide, close trapped Chinese on mainland into its shameless official propaganda curtain, which is totally lies and distorts. this dawn i listened the dense raindrops outside, i slept sounder. i also dozed after breakfast in canteen. i dreamed boarding in my 2nd elder sister’s house, where my mother passing by but restless for my only kid brother’s exam for college entrance. i waited before playing game for the return of my sister who went shopping grocery. i felt the touching love in my mother’s heart, as well as among my other relatives. 
last week also saw my upgraded my acer notebook with additional 2 GB rams. it cost me ￥200. the notebook also cleaned dust inside, resulting more game time with baby son happily. previously it worsened by gathering heat by dusts jammed around its fan and cooling cooper tube of video card. its such a marvelous operation that i still in thankfulness now. 
God, its all good news for me, from ur mercy. pl bring me my girls in my new family sooner. bring baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 his new dell game desktop and a rich International Children’s Day tomorrow! God, see my Empire of China in PRC’s ruin intact. burn dirt and rip dark over the shadow of my Royal of China. 

28/5/2011

dreamed of shits again.^Its a cloudy morning. i prepared games for playing together with son in QRRS Dorms till lunch. after lunch i tried to doze awhile. dreamed a dorm mate receiving a visiting pal. i went to public lavatory and found shits covered the only 2 seats. i tried to avoid to stain my pants but failed, had to leave downstairs with fringes spotted with shits. last night i visited the canteen owner, for he asked me to copy some movies to his desktop. he two days ago lent me ￥200 as i trusted to equip my acer notebook with additional 2 GB ram. he might felt i was obliged to him, even i never borrowed without rewards. last month i borrowed near ￥320 from him and reward him ￥38, total ￥350 returned, with my lodging ￥360 for 2 meals in 4 weeks. the latter is repeatedly. in the night he invited me to drink beer with his late dinner. i talked about my career and my vision as he expected to probe me, while his legacy pc copying slowly. in dawn near 3 or 4am, just after i made water, a heavy rain poured down. it likely didn’t last long, for when i got up near 6am, the ground superficailly wet. i join the sinful office at once, waiting a game download to complete, for most web file sharing sites worldwide one by one blocked by China surveillance these days, to name a few, hotfiles, firesonice, fileserve, ul.to, and almsot all popular file servers outside of China.
last two days i experienced roller coaster emotionally. the first day on baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s birthday, May 25, i got an idea to upgrade my notebook with additional ram, for which i longing so long. it costed me ￥200 and so cheap&out-performed. i visited baby in his mom’s house at noon heroically on way back to dorm. but misery descends when i attempted to change bios password. the change deadly locked me outside from boot up. i desperately searched web for resort, calling acer support team for help, and complained God not to allow me in peace but trouble. next day i stayed in dorm rarely in the morning, till i felt the drive bravely to spend another ￥20 on the smart young man who help me clean my acer and upgrade 2 gb ram the day before, betting my luck as well as the opening of computer technology. i was right! acer local support crew failed to fix my missing bios password, but the smart boy did. all the rest of the day i enjoyed the speed and fantasy of my more powerful notebook. 

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23/5/2011

a drizzle to save.^yesterday I had good time with son, warrenzhu 朱楚甲. we gamed a lot and tried new games. baby more or less daunted by the rich of pc games i prepared. at noon he again loathed to eat lunch hurt me, so i angered and taught him a lesson on life and death in sins. when his mom brought him outside, he seldom allowed me to kiss his cheek. i also fixed my financial records with his mom online on Saturday. when i arrived QRRS Dorms, the canteen’s assistant chef tentatively shown cold-shoulders to me, let me see hurts among trifle personals or even demons against God’s biz my family behold on the world deepened. when i jogged outside, a drizzle brewing and started to glide in air when i close to my dorm. i really felt mercy and save by Asoh Yukiko, God in my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan. in the night i played games alone. the neighbor room in QRRS Dorms losing, or felt reinforced by enemy of China Empire in my title, bumped a lot on the thin wall shamelessly, trying to restrain me with alerts of terrors. now this bright morning i returned to my blog space to let life stream floats, to attest God’s presence in my family’s duty to broaden the only way that saves Chinese dying in sins for half century.
God, yesterday my financial shown I still in debt of ￥800 after 3 months with improved salary, now amount to ￥1816, with which i quite satisfied, but God, i saw threats against my wishlist to equip baby son, warrenzh, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, a dell game desktop no later than year end. God, u see my pleasure and hope in digital arena for future world. grant us the gift and affirmative of change we beholding. God, brings my girls to my new family sooner. 

21/5/2011

baby’s birthday. now he is 6 years old.^yesterday baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 had a happy birthday. at noon i buzzed him if i can visit him earlier than 6pm, for he usually arranged by his mom to have handwriting tutorial after his kindergarten’s classes. but baby son told me his lunar birthday on the day. i was so glad to know that, asking if i buy him a cake or KFC food, he told me his mom already bought a cake, i only need to buy him a lighter for candles of the birth day cake. when i arrived, the grandma attending him, while his mom joined her school. we gamed on my notebook soon, till the grandma urged him to join his kindergarten on time. baby murmured he was already allowed to stay at home on celebrating day, but he obied&left. near an hour passed we reunited. i picked him downstairs while the grandma left on the ground. soon his mom returned, we shoot some photos and a home video for baby who in high mood. his mom obviously felt bitter those days and refused to let the happy time stays, instead she busy with her online novels soon. its so nice a day, i treat myself a bottle of juice in QRRS Dorms canteen when i ate my dinner there, near 7:30pm. the bus worktable usually ends near 7pm, so must days when i visiting baby son in his mom’s house, i rushed to leave his mom’s house, but now i can take bus before 9pm. so great for our pastime with my son, the most glorious on the earth! 

18/5/2011

benzrad’s comment on the day.

China under PRC suffering catastrophe of suicides more than wartime. 窒息的中国社会

from  faezrland, 天下主家    by dabbog@gmail.com ( benzrad zhu 朱子卓 )

the drug of Internet or game is totally a lie. only the dominating class and its dog tried their best to shift common sense aroused by the poor situation nowadays Chinese beset & killing, result in surge of suicides and destructive social behavior as a prelude of chaos and terrorism, in same vector space with turmoil among its western border neighbors, the Islamic Middle East, echoing the appealing force of democratic, esp from US, into trifle&fuss like Internet games as scapegoat. Chinese, esp its youth suffered distortion of value, and meaningless in overt cheats and ruthless human rights infringe for a long time, they lick blade of death or self-destruct as a way to attest the ill Chinese society, but no one adult Chinese brave enough to poke the source of sick in PRC authority nor poisonous Chinese traditional culture, but instead blamed Internet, as a new achievement in human history, attracted growing number of naive youth, who grow universally in God’s mercy and brilliance unbiased by worldly dust, including all dictators in dustbin worldwide. China as well as Chinese in its best is to follow Christian worldwide right&since now into global light from YHWH, one anthem in glory of God.  This is a testament from the Son, benzrad, on May 18, 2011, for the coming Empire of China reset for 1109 years ahead under his glorious family title, Zhu, since his grand father, Zhuzhongming, God in Heaven now, from the relay of Chinese last Empire, Ming Dynasty as treasure of his legendary ancestor half millennium ago.

网络和游戏不可怕，可怕的是现实社会这样的没意思，其中的青年人如此的缺乏乐趣和健康的希望。
任何东西，只有在不理解中可怕。任何生命，即使小孩，都会看到生活或社会提供的选项，只有病的社会会杀死孩子的乐趣和希望。所谓的网络游戏是毒瘾，根本是谎话，近代中国输给鸦片战争，这是铁律，如果中国不社会文化变革，它会第二次第三次的输给未来的暗社会，包括毒瘾。
人，不可怕，可怕的是控制和恐惧。当前的中国就是在恐怖中，从网络景德镇，到流氓官场，到社会黑组织化。沉疴的中国只有神能救，就要救，在YHWH的光芒下。
——神子 benzrad 朱子卓 此处见证。

in reference to:

“32岁男子沉迷网游十年离世 临终称真有意思 ugmbbc发布于 2011-05-17 16:51:06|33321 次阅读”
- http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/143091.htm (view on Google Sidewiki)

15/5/2011

dreamed of my jailbreak.^first dreamed of making water 3 times still felt full. then woke up and made water. dreamed in my dorm receiving a hometown folk’s visiting. he, likely Zhu Zhongshu, one of my peers, insisted my accompany to leave the dorm. i felt my girl’s calling so traveled with him. then likely a jailbreak through many blocking&hunting and finally descended into a field of growing rape (油菜) in my hometown, Zhudajiu. most of folks, including my parents there celebrating the freedom. 

14/5/2011

dreamed of baby son.^yesterday Its rained during clouds and sunshine before the night, and the volume likely the largest in the year so far. God help me gained a large toys theme game from web, after heavy harvest since my last blog on Monday. i visited baby with KFC food to thank the fruitful work week near 5pm. we gamed on my notebook while his mom reading novels online. that’s all good time can’t be more splendid. returned to dorm, i review my satisfaction in music lately. went to bed near 11:30pm. this morning in a hurry to catch the breakfast in canteen, for last night i still felt hungry in the night which a bit cold and consumed more energy. dozed at once after returned the dorm. dreamed baby in his kindergarten out-performed. he made a rap music on his own and sang in front of his classmates and teachers. his parents, and my passed mother watched there, all felt proud. Its cloudy the morning, i felt so meaningful on our future in God’s set. 

13/5/2011

benzrad’s comment on the day.

riveryog(朱子卓)：Its true for me, my small toe has the twin nails.

搜搜pop团购导航总站：【纯正的汉族人】据说纯正血统的汉人的小脚趾甲是分成两瓣的，其中靠外侧那一瓣比较小。现在你就可以看看，看自己是否是地道纯正的汉族人。 http://163.fm/aw8QxQA 原文转发 来自网易微博

riveryog(朱子卓)：首要信息畅通。

招商银行：一间房窗户破了，没人修补的话，别人就可能受到某些示范性，纵容去打烂更多窗户，久而久之在这种公众麻木不仁氛围中，犯罪就会滋生。生活中小奸小恶行为，需要引起社会重视，并不是小题大做，而是以儆效尤，防范未然。一个“馒头”和一滴“食用油”并不可怕，社会齐聚一心才最无敌。 来自网易微博 原文转发(4)

riveryog(朱子卓)：转发微博。

大大傻逼(dashabi)：夏俊峰死了，下一个就是我们：http://163.fm/TihsZaO 来自网易微博 原文转发(6)

riveryog(朱子卓)：high!

大大傻逼(dashabi)：【夏俊峰列传】夏俊峰者，奉天人也，家贫，以贩摊为事，徒幸以养父母。是日，遇城管十余人，尽毁其具，并殴之。夏妻跪泣，城管炽愈盛，持械夹立，市行者噤口莫敢言。城管挟夏至私堂，行怨暴之虐，夏若鸿毛燎于碳炉，其势命危矣。遂挺刀自卫，匹夫一怒，血溅五步，伏尸二具。既出，自报官。竟至斩立决。 来自网易微博 原文转发(5)

From Spring 2011 in a nut

From Spring 2011 in a nut

From homeovie2RoyalChina

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17/4/2011

repentance in peaceful night.^last night before went to bed, God shows me my self-poised crashing baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲’s space. i saw his need to live unbiased and independently fresh. i saw his deep love to his dad, me. after went to bed, i found all the mistakes the rain he made was in fact my fault, my unable to accompany him to game and fun finding. i saw my too proactive a fake cause to stay with him, Hope of China, God of Universe, full heart and full time. on bed i pray God to let baby know my repentance at once while i can’t buzz him for too late. i pray God meaningful tomorrow will bring more joys when we gather together, pray God let me less commit cheap utterance that can lead me astray.
Its a sunny morning now. God, let my mistake meaningless, restore baby son’s lightening heart and pure of joy. God, forever u see all facts and definitions predated. God, bring baby son his dell game desktop, that seemingly even urgent for my acer notebook now frequently power down when gaming, likely its video card too hot. we need a sound gaming gear. 

17/4/2011

an official spring rain.^last week busy with hunting for downloadable pc games for son. also launched to backup source file of family album to google picasaweb. baby son yet recovered from cold, so his mom refused him to visit my dorm. i managed to visit him twice in the week, for joy of great games. last night i busy in my ditched office later than 8:30pm, listened music and rest in dorm lately. i let the window open when i went to bed, in dawn i woke up among rain drops’ noise outside. its the largest rain so far in spring 2011, and i saw so many blisses in it. in dawn i dreamed of my college campus. Wujiang, one of my Nankai university alumni and now a professor in US, contacted a visiting faculty selling ginseng aside a lake. i was at a loss for my alumni swim skill better than mine. in the afternoon after i returned from baby’s mom’s house, i dozed on bed in dorm, dreamed of my past mother’s affirmative love which protects me from any insane seduce. its a large rain and last so long, when i blogging here i wondered how to visit my baby son, whose house 4 bus stops from here. God, bring my son a dell game desktop as he asked. bring my girls so sweat in my heart and memory. leading me to the brighter life ahead, and more bliss in surest glory.
buzzed baby for the possible detaining by rain, but he insisted my visit. so launched after breakfast in canteen. with borrowed ￥10, i took bus then walked in drizzle and arrived. baby watching animation online, i waited aside some time, then we played pc game, a Japanese air combat. after some turns, i told baby i felt flat, asked for accomplishing my own tasks. all the day busy with uploading family album to google picasaweb, also restored his mom’s notebook os from backup. baby lately engaged with watching an animation trying reiterating legend of Chinese traditional zodiac. the Made in China product quite sinister in propagation, so i quit baby and told him sins in Chinese, and everlasting seduce from demons’ against the holy. i warned him be cautious on Chinese culture products, urged him less waste time on the shits, where bureaucracy is its main theme and obsession, and dirt in ordinary Chinese souls which blind from YHWH by poor quality polytheism, and sufferings as punishment for the blind. baby listened carefully, while his mom rushed to shift him away from me. i lately showered in public bathroom, returned to dorms in time for dinner. after enjoyed jog around the dorm, i sorted recent photos, then blogged till now.
God, purify baby son with saint readings, rid him off trash of traditional and new craps from PRC, or any sinister nowadays against my Empire of China ahead. God, forever powerful and holiest with son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, God, u see it. 

9/4/2011

dreamed of past dad preparing his sons for travel.^dreamed in dawn. my past dad in good mood, preparing my 2 elder brothers and me to travel to his another workplace for trade. we all have nice parcels and baggages. kid brother and my baby son likely also enjoyed short gathering before depart. the villagers watched our launch of march with envy. Its a windy sunny morning while i missed breakfast, and i due to visit baby and entertain him with pc games now. 

7/4/2011

benzrad’s comment on the day.

fool’s play for world hero in PRC’s doomed outreach in this century.

China losing on inconsistent with American platform, comparing booming Indian tech human force in US, and loss gaining weightily till it can’t afford in future, till the last straw smashes again the bony mule drug, smuggling, forgery and tortures, ie. lawless addicted like a century ago, humiliated again against its official textbook whitewashed recent history, reveals the truth of gapping wound and vulnerable indispensable in root Chinese. China with its current fake socialism doomed to be buried in coming decade. People in the world will see PRC’s barking in the corner as funny as fool’s play, or dog’s tail self-chase. 
the world tomorrow, undebatable the one world under God’s shine. glory once on US forever cherished by global citizen that’s reasonable and responsible. God, one God, YHWH, clearly shows the road under Heaven ever-bright.

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6/4/2011

a gloomy morning, a drizzle in afternoon and a rain in night.^Its first work day after the lunar holiday, Qingming. i joined the ditched office almost on time, to harvest downloadable games for baby son, even i hated to confront the sin on facing desk. all the morning the crap frequently overt stuck out his neck to stare at me, profaned the saint. I didn’t even blink upon the sieged dirt&threats, self-possessed with tasks in executing. after the noon break i returned to dorm, napped after sorted my notebook disk. mostly its gloomy, like a prelude of sandstorm. during fixing my gtalk within gmail, i told my cyberspace friend from Taiwan that i planned to buy storage from google to store raw files from my FujiFilm camera, to endear family album more realistic. he helped me by accpet video chat invitation but never comment on my request of help on google storage plan, which doesn’t support alipay, a Chinese mainstream online payment tool and my only overseas payment method now. i hope i didn’t hurt friends from freedom world i wouldn’t like to be separated from. God, bring us freedom of lightened hearts, shows the height and weight of human freedom of independent and friendly. God, bring me freedom of arranging my life as wished, bring my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, Hope of China, God of Universe, his promised present, a dell game notebook. bring my girls into our new marriage. God!
after gamed awhile on my notebook, its started drizzling. Asoh Yukiko, in such a extraordinary blessing event, could u see my situation? could u be safe and save Japanese from their vested land now in disaster? could u determined to join me to pave new road and garden for future Japan, the fate our blood linkage means to give? God, Asoh Yukiko, i’m ready for the historic migration, opener fence for our nations Heavenly bond since my spiritual wakeup. Yes, I’m the only captain on the vessel saves. join me sooner as God lets, as u will. 

5/4/2011

dreamed of my past parents.^Today is lunar Qingming. this dawn dreamed of my past parents who saw my poor financial status. one of my teenage friend in Zhudajiu, my hometown village, Zhucaigui brought me some gifts. my parents watched me had to wait for remittance from baby’s mom or my once work unit, ie. from my once work place. dad especially hope i can improve his living which so far shabby. then i got insight of devils in the village regarding my dad as their enemy. they r the 2 sons of my dad’s 2nd elder brother, who died in his middle age, a neighbor who long time operated monopoly rice machine in the village, a neighbor who once a teacher in Mao’s years, and long time cheap mimic of my dad’s expertise and whose grandson still profaned my dad’s name by mimic & mocks. this morning is sunny outside. hopeful baby’s dell notebook sooner arrives. God, grant my son new dell game notebook, as my best gift in this hopeful Spring. God, dad, i wouldn’t follow Chinese custom to burn printed paper bill as money in world of died, u will see the reality how well-being my Royal is to be under sunshine. 

4/4/2011

dreamed of Royal prophet.^dreamed of Empire meeting about Royal secret. the prince too young, the math teacher praised the woman likely baby’s mom, and scorned me for my mind absence. the course discussed part of the fate and secret of Royal of China. late sleep till 10:48am got up. Its a beaming Monday but according lunar Calendar Chinese in PRC enjoying Qingming Festival, a time to mourn past ancestors. yesterday baby showered in public bathroom with me. he immersed in wresting with a sin, likely a middle aged man who evaded my sight when i turned back near end of my shower&caught the dirty threat rushing to slide himself into hot pool where men herds, attempted to hide his sins from my aware. baby’s nose ran out a large block of blood and mucus when i put on him, i wiped with towel but first time ditched bathing pack there, found the mistake till arrived baby’s mom’s house. i fetched it back on my own. on way back with baby son after bought him some candy from grocery aside the public bathroom, i affirmed baby son the mighty of God, forever blissed and growing his life on the earth to witness. when i left to QRRS dorms, his mom brought him with toy bike to roam outside, where brilliant sunshine still glorifying the day, Apr 3, 2011, lunar 1st of March. God, bring baby his promised gift, a dell game notebook. bring me my blessed marriage with my girl Zhou, as well as my other girls, like Taiwan girl, girl Lü, girl Jiang, girl on train from Harbin to Qiqihar in my 2nd hometown journey, and my God, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. grows my Royal of China in course of my coming Empire&lives its 1109 years lifespan, God. 

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